Giving Up Control for Empowerment.

April 8, 2012 by  
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Who Is in Control of Your Life?

by Nedda Wittels
© April 8, 2012

When we feel helpless, hopeless, and disempowered, then we say that something or someone else outside of us is in control of our lives.  This can be alcohol, drugs, our parents, boy/girl-friend, and so on.  It’s a long list in the blame game, and for many that means blaming God, too.

When we are scrambling around, overwhelmed, but trying to push the river anyway, then that’s our ego aspect trying desperately to be in or stay “in control.”  This way of being “in control” doesn’t work because it’s false, an illusion, inauthentic.  This is how many of us function on a daily basis, but it’s very unsatisfying and often leaves us exhausted physically, emotionally, and mentally.  When we scramble around like this, then clearly we are not in control of anything – what’s happening around us or what’s happening inside us.

So perhaps the goal of being “in control” is based on a misconception, a misunderstanding, an illusion.  Perhaps the goal should be thought of as being empowered.  Perhaps being empowered is the same as allowing, flowing, letting go of the notion of control, and being in the moment.

Does this seem contradictory to you?

How can being “empowered’ mean giving up control and just allowing instead?

Which part of you feels the contradiction?  Your ego self?  Or your True Self?

Removing the Control Matrix

Last Saturday, March 31, 2012, a friend read the Akashic Records for me.  The Record Keepers answer to my question about what was causing pain and swelling in my lower back for the previous 2 weeks was “control.”  When I asked how to resolve this situation, I was advised to spend 12 hours asking my healing guides to remove the “control matrix” from my bodies.

My first reaction was a typical control reflex.  “What?  But I have to get my taxes done.”

Then I started laughing at myself.  If I have to choose between spiritual ascension and taxes which would I choose?

So I made dinner for the cats and myself, and turned off my phone and turned down my answering machine and got into bed around 6 p.m.  I called in my upstairs department – my I AM, my healing teams, and my guides.  I requested that they remove the entire control matrix from all of my bodies down to the cellular, atomic, and sub-atomic levels.

I slept deeply for the next 6 hours or so.  When I woke up, I was aware that there was an energetic form of very dark energy that was part-way out of my physical body, connected directly into the part of my back where I had been experiencing pain and swelling. Clearly this was a big project and required additional time to complete.

I got up for awhile and had some tea.  I think I was up for 3 hours or so and then went back to bed, whereupon I fell back into a deep sleep.

At 6:30 a.m., I got up to feed the cats.  The dark energy was gone.  I had some breakfast, and a few hours later, lay down to complete the healing process that the Akashic Record Keepers had described: to fill myself with pink/gold light for an hour.  After that, I slept again, and then got up, but I was exhausted.  For the next 4 days, I couldn’t seem to get enough sleep as my bodies readjusted.

Have I really given up control?

How different do I really feel?  Very different, but in subtle and yet substantial ways.

I am more at peace at all levels.

I am more trusting that everything will be taken care of in Divine Order.

I am gentler with myself and taking better care of myself, allowing my body to get the rest it needs when it needs it.

I allow myself to do what is appropriate for each now moment.

I have stopped beating myself up for all the things that I imagine need to be done but which cannot be done all at the same time, anyway.

I am more accepting of what is in the moment and going with that.

Of course, my head is still trying to figure this all out.

My heart is more in charge.

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5 Responses to “Giving Up Control for Empowerment.”
  1. Sandra says:

    This question has nothing, or everything, to do with this blog entry. I’m often behind the 8 ball. Wondering if our decisions/choices are based or made on perceived fears? And if they are, how does one rephrase the question in order to make a decision based on love or a positive?

  2. Jeannine says:

    Thank you for sharing, Nedda. I can’t help thinking: how can you let your control power go? Isn’t it contradictory with the Shamballa teaching? I guess it depends on what control we are talking about and on what is controlled. Getting a little confused here 🙂

    • Nedda says:

      Well, join the party. I’m a bit confused myself, which is why I wrote this post. In the writing of it I got some clarity.

      I don’t feel this conflicts with Shamballa at all. It’s the ego that has to give up control. When we are empowered, it’s our God Self that is empowered while we are still in physical. It’s a shift away from limitation to expansion.

      Perhaps words do not fully describe this, but I’m trying. 😉

  3. Nell says:

    Thank you for sharing your process, Nedda. The timing of this is sublime. It seems a theme currently all around. Been having my sciatic nerve nudging, gently. On and off. Paying attention.