Melissa: A Challenging Life

 

Clearing Multiple Lifetimes of Karma in a Single Life
Copywrite © Nedda Wittels, 2022

A beautiful portrait of Melissa.

Melissa came into my current life in the fall of 2015. She was already 6 months old.  She brought with her many challenges – for me, for herself, and for Starlight, my Siamese, who was 2 and a half at the time.

Melissa brought 11 or 12 lifetimes of horrendous experiences and deaths, many that I had caused or participated in in some way.  In some she had been a feline living with me; in others my human child.  All this karma weighed heavily on her, like a soggy thick wool blanket.

I don’t know all the stories, but enough to know that she and I had much karma to resolve between us.

Melissa carried much deep-seated anger and rage from those past lives, as well as from having waited 6 months for me to show up in her current life.   From her perspective, she had lost out on her kittenhood with me.  And she arrived in a household with two elderly cats who were had health issues requiring a lot of attention, as well as Starlight, to whom I was very close.

In addition to all that, Melissa’s biological parents had been filled with vaccinations from their importation process.  Whatever is in the parents affects the offspring, and for Melissa this contributed to the disaster which plagued her later on.

When she finally came to my home, Melissa was reluctant to speak telepathicaly with me about much of anything.  She refused to tell me her name and made until I somehow guessed it.  She was difficult for me to hear telepathically.  When I tried to explain things, she would send me an image of herself with her paws in her ears:  “I’m not listening.”  She would also send images of a rebel teenager leaning against a wall with a smug, superior expression on his face, refusing to cooperate with anyone.

In a fit of anger one day, Melissa broke out of the house by tearing a hole in a sliding screen door.  I thought she was running away and wouldn’t return.  My house backs up to some woods, and her color blended in perfectly.  Fortunately, 45 minutes later, she returned calmer and more relaxed than I had ever seen her.  This showed me that she needed to be allowed outside to get grounded and more peaceful.

Melissa looking out a window.

Even as a kitten, Melissa would climb up to look out high windows.

At first I resisted letting Melissa go out whenever she wanted to go.  We would metaphorically knock heads together on a regular basis about this and many other things.  We were both strong minded, controlling, and stubborn.  It was very challenging working things out with her.   I learned to compromise … and compromise …and compromise.  She often agreed to something and then did as she pleased – a typical rebellious teenager mentality.

Usually Melissa would stay outside in or near the yard, but she soon began exploring further and further away from the yard, establishing territory.  She was a fierce hunter, and one of my neighbors was delighted that she kept the chipmunks out of his vegetable garden.  She not only killed and ate chipmunks, but also moles, squirrels, mice, and birds.  I gave up having a bird feeder in the winter to protect them from her ability to jump straight up 4+ feet in the air and knock them to the ground in one swift movement.

Another Layer of Challenge – The Injury

Melissa would usually go out for a short time and then come back and “check in,” and then head back out.  So the day she was gone for 7 hours, I was concerned.  Still, she was so smart and filled with the natural instinct of the feral cat who knows how to survive in the wild.  All day I kept speaking to her telepathically asking her come home, and all she would say was, “I’m coming.”

When Melissa finally showed up, it was clear that all was not right with her.  She would take about 10 steps and then stop and rest.  Then 10 more steps, and then stop.  She refused my offer to pick her up and carry her.

I let her into the house and she continued — 10 steps at a time — all the way through the living room and up the stairs, finally jumping onto my bed (which she thought of her bed, of course).  There I discovered that both her hind legs were badly injured.  One had bled quite a bit while the other was just missing some skin.  There was no more bleeding, and the wounds were clean.

Fortunately, I knew what to do and fortunately, she let me do it.  Picking her put very gently, I sprinkle some warm water on her legs rinse off her injuries.  Then I use Calendula gel, a homeopathic that disinfects, on her open wounds.  I placed a towel under her on my bed, where she clearly wanted to be.  But she wouldn’t drink water and she wouldn’t eat.

It had been a hot day and she should have been both thirsty and hungry.  She was exhausted and clearly in pain.  So pain was the next thing to be addressed.

I gave Melissa homeopathic Arnica, Ruta Graveolens, and Hypericum by dropper.  She started to relax a bit as these remedies are all pain relievers in addition to their other benefits for injuries.

Her back muscles were spasming and very tight.  I used TTouch (Tellington Touch) and unwinding techniques which encouraged her back to relax and release.

Then I gave her electrolytes by dropper and plain water by dropper.  After she had had enough of those, she was finally willing to drink on her own.  After that, she, ate some raw food from a bowl I held for her.

I put a litter box in my bedroom so Melissa could use it without going downstairs.  Being Melissa, she ignored it and insisted on going downstairs to use the other boxes, and then back upstairs to her spot on the bed.

Melissa did get treated by our holistic vet who checked the wounds and also did chiropractic.  As her body healed, I encouraged her to be more cautious, more careful.  She would never look before she jumped, and that clearly had been a factor in this injury.  Melissa was able to run and jump again, but never fully recovered her full flexibility and the height of her jumps was less than before.

How Melissa coped with pain.

Melissa watching a mouse.

A mouse is near the ceiling, and Melissa is keeping a close eye on it.

Melissa’s way of coping with emotional and physical pain was to ignore both as much as possible, spend time in nature hunting, and to run, and run, and run.  It wasn’t until after her passing that I realized how much chronic physical pain she must have been in, not just from the injury, but from chronic constipation she had developed as a kitten and which had gotten worse over time.

Some people and animals spend entire lifetimes running from pain, and that was what Melissa was doing.  Sadly, I didn’t realize all of this at the time, but perhaps I wasn’t meant to know the full extent of what was happening.

It wasn’t as tho’ I ignored Melissa’s physical and emotional problems.  I researched and did everything possible to turn things around for her, to make her more comfortable, to help her heal.  Some things aren’t meant to be “fixed” because the soul has to experience them to learn and to balance karma.  Nothing I did seemed to resolve her issues, although, as it turned out, everything I did helped on some deep level to let Melissa know she was dearly loved.

Melissa Became a Chronic Biter.

Melissa surrounded by toys.

Melissa surrounded by some favorite toys.

Two weeks after her rabies vaccination at 1 year of age, Melissa began biting me and drawing blood.  It took me 2 years to figure out that she was struggling with rabies vaccinosis.

When I’d ask Melissa why she bit me, she’d deny doing it.  This made me furious because I didn’t believe her.  It took me a long time to figure out that she really didn’t remember biting me.  She would be in a trance-like state whenever she bit and then not remember what she had done.

Some veterinarians insist there’s no such thing as vaccinosis, but Melissa was a classic case of rabies vaccinosis.  Her eyes would glaze over, her pupils dialated fully, and she’d attack without warning.  It didn’t matter whether she was playing, being petted, or just sitting quietly.  The attacks seemed to come out of nowhere.  Because they were unpredictable, I became more and more on guard around her.

I didn’t ignore this situation.  I tried everything possible to resolve this issue, as I also did with her constipation difficulties.  Every alternative treatment that I thought might resolve these problems were attempted with the best people I could find.  Hundreds of treatments, not just one or two here and there were given to Melissa.

She had shamanic soul retrievals and shamanic healings.  She had homeopathic treatments.  She had acupuncture and chiropractic, Theta Healing, Emotion Code and Body Code.  Prayers was invoked.  Multidimensional Energy Healing sessions were given.  This went on for 5 years.

Slowly Melissa improved in many ways.  But time was running out.  The Ascension energies kept raising the frequencies higher and faster, and higher and faster shifts and Stargate openings seemed to make things more and more difficult for Melissa.  She was making her best effort to control her behavior, and failing again and again.

By the time Melissa was 6 years old, she was attacking me more and more often.  In 2021, the Lion’s Gate Portal in August brought things to a peak.  Neither Melissa nor I could continue to live this way.  She was trying her best to control her behavior, but couldn’t.  And I couldn’t handle being bitten frequently, especially after one time when I became so depressed that I didn’t treat my wounds and they became infected.

The Only Option Left Was Euthanasia

Over the 5 and a half years that Melissa was with me, I had grown to deeply love her. When I would be furious with her, I could see that she was a powerful reflection of me – my issues – my ways of coping with life.

I didn’t want to euthanize her because it felt like killing her again, repeating past karma instead of healing it.  But there were no other options.

I faced a huge ethical and moral dilemma.  I couldn’t turn her loose in the woods because she wouldn’t survive the winters and the abandonment would be devastating emotionally.  I couldn’t give her to someone else because her biting was dangerous.  Starlight loved her.  I loved her.  She loved us.  I wrestled with this for all the years she was here.

On the August 8, 2021 Lions Gate weekend, it all came to a head.  Fortunately, a dear friend and powerful psychic healer convinced me that Melissa really wanted to leave her body.  She couldn’t tolerate being here any more.  Melissa was in a great deal of physical and emotional pain.  She really did need to go back into spirit.

I asked Melissa if she really wanted to go back into spirit.  She told me that she was emotionally exhausted and ready to leave.  It was a summer Sunday evening, and Melissa liked to go out at dusk, just the time I preferred she’d be inside.  But that evening, I told her she could go, and if she wanted to leave with the help of a wild animal, I was certain she could call on one to help her.

Melissa left the house and everything became very, very quiet.  It felt like she had pulled all her energy in and I couldn’t feel her presence at all.  Starlight felt the same way.  I stayed up very late because I didn’t want Melissa to return and be locked out of the house.  By 10 p.m. she was back, all her energy still contained around her.  She wanted a gentle death, and that’s what I would give her the following day.

Euthanizing Melissa was the most difficult euthanasia I have ever had to do.  I knew it was the right thing to do.  I knew she was ready.  She told me and showed me that this was what she wanted and needed – a gently, loving passage back into spirit, not some trauma induced death.

I called the next morning and made the appointment for euthanasia.  About 15 minutes before we were to leave the house, Melissa jumped onto the sofa next to Starlight.  They sat quietly for a few minutes talking.  And then they started to say goodbye by grooming each other so lovingly, so tenderly that I could hardly hold the camera steady.  When they were finished, Melissa got into the cat carrier and we left.

Melissa’s body was buried in the woods behind my house the following day.

I grieved, and grieved, and grieved.  Starlight grieved with me for a few weeks, but for me this was releasing lifetimes and lifetimes of pain, and my grieving seemed endless.  I sobbed and sobbed for hours … days … weeks … months.  I couldn’t talk about this, nor could I write about it.  It was coming from so deep within me that I just needed to experience the grief and let it go as much as possible, and trust that, over time, I would heal.

There’s more to the saga of Melissa.

Look for the next installment coming soon.

 

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Are you living in “Scare City?” Would you like to know how to move out?

December 22, 2020 by  
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Scare City is the name I give the state of Consciousness in which we create scarcity for ourselves and others who choose to experience it.

It isn’t the name of a city, nor is it a specific place.  It’s a dimension, a set of beliefs, a level of reality in which we experience limitation, lack, and fear.

Scare City is a mental construct, a set of rules that we agreed to accept to experience the game of duality in the third dimension.

When your thinking is limited, you experience limitation, and your heart center is closed.

When you move out of thinking into feeling, when you shift from the mind to the heart, you feel expansive, you experience expansiveness, and your heart center opens.

 

Shift from limitation into EXPANSIVENESS.

Scarcity means a lack, a shortage.  It says that there’s not enough to go around.

The truth is that there are some people who are in so much fear that they hoard resources and are unwilling to share.  Their fear has sent them into creating a world in which most people really do experience lack.

But it’s also true that . . .

We experience whatever

we believe to be true.

Lack of sharing comes from fear.  Fear that there isn’t enough.  Fear that others will get something and you won’t.

What do you think would happen if everyone shared all the abundance of resources of this marvelous planet Earth?

I once heard a story about a Saint who died.  He was greeted by an angel who said he would be granted one wish before he went to heaven.  The Saint requested a visit to hell.  The angel took him there.

In hell, everyone was standing around huge pots of delicious smelling stew.

Each person had a huge spoon in his or her hand, but the spoon was so long that they couldn’t bring it to their own mouth, so no one was eating.

Everyone was starving.  They all looked emaciated, unhappy, sad, and afraid.

Then the angel took the Saint to heaven.  Everyone there was also standing around huge pots of food holding the same enormous spoons.

In heaven, no one was unhappy or afraid.  Everyone felt huge love and appreciation for everyone else.   Everyone here was eating with those same spoons.

Everyone in heavan was eating because they were all feeding each other.

A few months ago, Lily, the adult daughter of my neighbor, came to my house with a large box of fresh veggies.  She told me she had gone to Food Share to get food for herself and her mother, who’s in her eighties.  They gave her more food than she had room for in the refrigerator, so she was sharing with me.

I took some veggies, and then after she left, I decided to do some sharing of my own.  I went to my pantry, and took canned goods – organic tomatoes, organic beans of various types, and some other things I had available.

When I offered them to Lily, her eyes lit up.  She was very grateful to receive these foods.   All I said to her was that I wanted to share with her as she had shared with me.

I decided that I would donate to Food Share.  I felt that I had no right to receive food from there, but clearly Lily didn’t know that, and I didn’t want to reject her gift or in any way make her feel uncomfortable.  Then I sent a donation to Food Share to help others.

I live in a what looks like a middle class neighborhood in a semi-rural area.  I was shocked/surprised to discover that hunger was at my neighbor’s door.

Perhaps you, too, would be surprised to know how your neighbors are faring.  Or perhaps you and your family are finding it difficult to pay all your bills and have money for food.

You don’t have to experience Scare City any more.

The energies are supporting you in

shifting your Consciousness

from limitation to expansiveness,

from scarcity to ABUNDANCE!

When we’re afraid, we contract – literally.

We pull in our energies and try to be smaller, like a prey animal hiding from a predator.

We try to be invisible by shrinking.

We change our posture to appear smaller, too.

At the same time, our body produces hormones that reduce our ability to think clearly.

Our focus is on fight or flight (hide is part of flight) due to adrenaline being released.

JUST FOR TODAY, try something different.

Put aside your fears and try living in a state of DIVINE LOVE.

Imagine yourself in the FLOW OF ABUNDANCE, receiving all there is to receive and sharing it with others.

DIVINE LOVE also exists in ABUNDANCE.  It is limitless and expansive.

When we feel Love, we produce different hormones that allow us to expand and be creative.

We literally sit up straighter and our energy field expands and we thus grow larger.

We become more creative because our brains functions more clearly.

When we connect with Love, different hormones are produced, and this enables our thinking processes to not only improve, but to peak.

Today, decide to LOVE YOURSELF and to send Love to everyone you meet, even if they challenge you in some way or try to give you some of their fear.

Move out of “Scare City”.

Move into “Love City”.

Love conquers fear every time.

Give it a try.

BE THE LOVE.

The Higher Purpose of the Lockdown? Spiritual Awakening!

December 13, 2020 by  
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Flield of orange flowers.

* Photo by dylan nolte on Unsplash *

“I’m afraid of Death,” said my adult niece.

I don’t know why this surprised me, but it did.  Her fear brought the entire conversation to a halt because it was so strong that she couldn’t even talk about it.

Death is a natural process that we all experience in 3-D.  It happens to everyone at that level of Consciousness.

So why do we fear it?

Programming – by religious organizations to control us, to keep us in the fear matrix of 3-D duality consciousness.

The so-called corona virus is being used to revv up our fears and send us spiraling into states of confusion, panic, terror, and horror.  This prevents us from thinking clearly, from asking questions unwanted by the government and others who seek to control us.

The “lockdown” is touted as a way to prevent people from getting sick, but it really is being used to isolate us, to limit our physical contact, which we need to be healthy physically and emotionally.

The goal seem to be to keep us small, limited, afraid, and isolated, and to get us to inject our bodies with whatever the controllers choose to put into what they are calling a vaccine.

BUT, and this is a very big BUT, there is SPIRITUAL GOOD NEWS if you choose to focus on that opportunity.

What if this whole situation is designed to get people to TURN WITHIN.  To step back from everything they held onto that keeps them limited and small, and to give them an opportunity to question everything that they thought was true and real about their lives.

While there is chaos, there is opportunity to for new growth to emerge, new choices to be made, new adventures to be experienced.

And the greatest adventure of all is not, as Star Trek would have you believe, to go “where no man [or woman] has gone before.”

The greatest adventure is to GO WITHIN and re-discover your Divinity, your True Self, and your infinite Divine nature.

This entire situation of lockdowns and masks, and fear-mongering messages (such as being told to “stay safe” 100 times a day) has the benefit, i.e., major Gold Nugget of giving you time and space to take a look at your life, to make new choices, to free you from your addiction to the material world, and to turn you back to your Soul, to your Divine Self.

If fear of death is keeping you small, you might read some books about NDE (Near Death Experiences).  There are many good ones out there.  They all demonstrate that what you believe is what you create.

Most people who have  NDEs discover the Divine Truth of Infinite Love is readily available to them.  They learn that they are the only one who is judging them.  They often discover their Soul Purpose, and return to 3-D Consciousness with a strong desire to fulfill that purpose.

There are other ways to discover your Soul’s purpose.  You don’t have to have an NDE to find out what it is.  The important thing to remember is that your Soul does have a purpose for your life.

Remember, you have already been told that:

God is Love.

You were created from Love.

The Divine Self lives within you as You.

Infinite Love is the only Truth.

Everything else is illusion.

What will you choose?  What kind of reality do you want to continue to experience?

One based on fear?

Or one based on Love?

One based on duality and conflict?

Or one based on unity and cooperation?

One based on limitation?

Or one based on expansion, which leads to great experiences of creativity, joy, and Love?

 

STOP standing in your own way.

December 6, 2020 by  
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STOP holding yourself back.

STOP feeling the PAIN OF DEFEAT

before you even get started.

 

JUST DO IT!

Do what you’ve always wanted to do.

 

There’s something you’ve always wanted to do.  It calls to your heart.  You’ve been listening to this call your whole life.

You may have heard it as a child, but then you “grew up” and listened to what others thought about your longing … and they discouraged you.

Now you’re an adult.  Now you can make new choices.  But . . . you may still be listening to the old messages, the opinions of others.

Is this you?

Are you still standing in your own way?

Stop looking for approval from others.

 

STOP BLAMING others because you choose to listen to their negativity instead of to the calling of your heart.

STOP WORRYING about what others will think.

STOP STANDING IN YOUR OWN WAY.

The “others” you have in mind don’t even care about you.  If they truly cared about you, they’d want you to live your dream.

These “others” are moving on with their own lives based on their choices, beliefs, and fears.

They may be full of opinions and negativity about your choices. 

SO WHAT?

Why do you care what they think?

Stop tip-toeing around them.

Your personal goals and your dreams are YOURS TO IMAGINE and YOURS TO FULFILL.

Who’s running your life anyway?

If you allow others to decide for you out of their fears, their jealousies, their desire for one-upmanship, then you’re giving your power away to them.

STOP thinking about others and their opinions.

You’re standing in your own way when you worry about what others will think.

The only one holding you back,

the only one stopping you

from living your dream

is YOU.

So many famous people were told “it can’t be done” because no one had done it before.

Inventors, explorers, artists, musicians, dancers, designers, writers, scientists, engineers, athletes . . .  all have faced ridicule and negativity at one time or another in their lives, yet they chose to follow their star – their dream – and this changed everything for them and for others who benefited from their success.

There have been people who had terrible accidents or illnesses and told they wouldn’t survive, but they did.

There have been people told they’d never walk again who learned to walk.

If others can succeed, so can you.

Consider the ideas presented in this poem by Edgar Albert Guest, reprinted from The Poetry Foundation.

 

It Couldn’t Be Done
     by Edgar Albert Guest

Somebody said that it couldn’t be done
But he with a chuckle replied
That “maybe it couldn’t,” but he would be one
Who wouldn’t say so till he’d tried.
So he buckled right in with the trace of a grin
On his face. If he worried he hid it.
He started to sing as he tackled the thing
That couldn’t be done, and he did it!

Somebody scoffed: “Oh, you’ll never do that;
At least no one ever has done it;”
But he took off his coat and he took off his hat
And the first thing we knew he’d begun it.
With a lift of his chin and a bit of a grin,
Without any doubting or quiddit,
He started to sing as he tackled the thing
That couldn’t be done, and he did it.

There are thousands to tell you it cannot be done,
There are thousands to prophesy failure,
There are thousands to point out to you one by one,
The dangers that wait to assail you.
But just buckle in with a bit of a grin,
Just take off your coat and go to it;
Just start in to sing as you tackle the thing
That “cannot be done,” and you’ll do it.

 

So it’s all up to you.

You get to decide to stop sitting on your talents.

It’s up to you to decide to believe in yourself.

It’s up to you to STEP UP, STEP OUT, take a chance, take a risk, and live

LARGE.

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