Exploring Your 2014 Timeline

January 6, 2014 by  
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Last Saturday morning I gave free teleclass on the subject of Exploring Your 2014 Timeline in Non-Linear Time.

During that class, I guided people through a conversation with their December 31, 2014 aspect.

Today I want to share some of the answers I received when I asked the same questions to my I Am Presence.

  1. What are the 3 biggest challenges I will have in 2014?  Fear, anxiety, and depression. These come from hanging on, rather than letting go.  If you let go and trust, they will dissolve and not be an issues, but if you continue to cling to the way things were or what you think is best, rather than what you feel is best, these will continue to challenge you.

  2. Which of these is the biggest one for me?  Fear.  You will struggle to maintain your balance while the world experiences “earthquakes” – not in the physical earth, but in the human sphere of 3-D structure.  These must collapse, so focusing on what is being created will make it easier to let go of what is no longer appropriate for Earth and humanity.

  3. What resources do I have to asst me?  Divine Love.  Courage.  People whom you know who are already awake and others who are waking up now.  You will meet still others who have gifts to offer you.

  4. What am I resisting that might make this challenge more difficult?  You are resisting letting go of judgment.  When you stop judging and just focus on the Seeds of Equivalent Benefit, that is the way to have them emerge.  KNOW that you have already solved whatever challenge is before you and that the solution is perfect and beautiful and arriving in the now moment!

  5. What are 3 gifts I can receive right now that will accelerate my ability to move through this challenge?  –ASK FOR HELP.  You already know that you can ask for help from Source and all the “upstairs department,” as you call us.  So REMEMBER to do so.  –LOVE YOURSELF EVERY DAY.  Bring in Divine Love and let it go everywhere within you.  –EXPAND YOUR HEART.  Living from your heart is a great way to stay out of judgment.  The Heart doesn’t judge.  It just loves.

  6. How can I open myself to receive these gifts?  Focus on your heart center every day, more than once daily.  Opening your heart and living from your heart are a new key.  Use this key to manifest all that you are choosing.

If you participated in the teleclass or listened to the recording of that class, you are welcome to share what you received in a comment to this post, or just to comment.

Of course, everyone else is also welcome to comment.


Whatever Happened to “Ma’am”?

May 5, 2013 by  
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. . . and Don’t Ask Me How I Am!!!

I personally find it intensely RUDE, OBNOXIOUS, and DISRESPECTFUL when salespeople say, “How are you?” and call me “Dear.”

Yet this seems to be the current state of making a purchase in a store.

Whatever happened to “May I help you?”

Whatever happened to good manners?

Whatever happened to being polite and

treating people with respect?

– – – – –

Is it because my hair is salt and pepper

that I’m treated with such disrespect?

– – – – –

The dictionary defines “ma’am” as:

“Short for madam: used as a title of respect.”


I am not “dear” or “honey” or “sweetie” or any other term of endearment to a stranger behind a register, filling my grocery bag, or waiting on me in a store.

Why are all the salespeople like little robots, saying the same thing to you regardless of what store you’re in?  Who has been programming them all to say the same things?

And the next sales person who calls me “Dear” or “Sweetie” or some other term of endearment is likely to find themselves under arrest for invasion of my personal boundaries.

I’ve had it with this level of intrusion.

In case you’re wondering how someone like me, someone with whom the word “conservative” would never be associated, I don’t know how to explain it myself.  I just know that the current state of impolite speech and rude behavior in my world has become intolerable.

And if you do know me, you know that I’m not likely to keep my mouth shut about it.

So . . . look out, sales people, because I’m mad as hell and I’m not going to take this any more!!

I’m going to make myself a “name tag” that says,

Do not ask how I Am.

Refer to me only as “Ma’am”.

Otherwise, I’ll be complaining to your manager!


Dimensional Shifting Toy Mouse

February 23, 2013 by  
Filed under Animals and Nature Kingdoms, Nedda, New Posts


Mouse?  Mouse!  Where’s the Mouse?

Starlight's toy mouse collection.

Starlight and I were playing with a new toy mouse last night.  I threw the mouse and Starlight chased it, grabbed it, tossed it, wacked it about, and brought it back to me.

Did you know that Siamese cats retrieve?  Well, they do.  At least they do until they teach YOU to retrieve for them, which was the game Violet likes to play.  She sits atop the cat tree and I  toss toys at her and she bats them away like a keeper in Quiddich.  Great eye-paw coordination.  Then I’m supposed to find all the toys, pick them up, and throw them again.  But I digress.

So I tossed the mouse again and Starlight chased after it again and it rolled under the hassock, which has a skirt so you can’t see under it.  Starlight dived completely underneath (she still fits), but soon emerged mouseless.

Dimensional shifting mouse?

“Where’s the mouse?” I asked her.   Starlight gave a telepathic shoulder shrug.

I saw it go under.

Starlight saw it go under.

Starlight FOLLOWED it under.

So I peeked under the hassock.  No mouse.

I looked out the other side and under the chair behind the hassock.  No mouse.

Starlight looked bewildered.  I probably did, too.

From my childhood, I knew that things sometimes dimensional shift.  This is not the same as misplacing an item and forgetting where you put it.

The other evening, I misplaced a pair of reading glasses and despite searching unsuccessfully for a long time, I gave up and went to bed.  The next morning, the glasses were still missing.  I finally found them when I decided to put some books back in a bookcase in my office.  There on the shelf were the glasses, which I probably placed there while looking for the books.  I hadn’t looked there during my search, I so can’t claim to know for sure that they didn’t shift dimensionally, but it’s probably safe to say that they didn’t.

When I was a child, my sisters and I would throw a ball to each other on the lawn.  If one of us missed the ball, we could usually go right to the spot where we saw the ball land and pick it up to resume our game.  But not always.  Sometimes, we’d go to the spot and the ball had just disappeared.  Dimensional shift!!  Weeks or months later, the ball might show up – in exactly the spot where we had looked for it!!

But back to the mouse.

I carefully checked the entire side of the room where the mouse might have rolled or been batted by Starlight.

No mouse.

A little later, while talking on the phone with a friend, I spied a mouse of the same color on the far side of the room just sitting quietly with a few other cat toys.

Starlight commenting.

Is that the missing mouse?

Did it not only dimensional shift, but shift in space as well?

I’m not sure we’ll ever know.

But you and I and Starlight will know that toy mice CAN dimensional shift.  Hmmm.


Starlight’s Escapade

February 23, 2013 by  
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“Ethical Products, Inc.” –

Just how “ethical” are they?

Last summer I purchased a very expensive (for me) pet carrier that was light weight, with shoulder strap and several other nifty features. I did this because I was having my usual set of physical issues, and carrying my adults cats in their regular carriers had become difficult if not impossible.

Ethical Products "Fashion Pet Travel Gear"

The carrier was beautiful, although a bit snug for Sakhara, who is OK with it for short trips. I used it maybe 6 or 7 times and it remained in perfect, as new, condition.

Then Starlight went to the vet last week to be spayed. She’s about 6 months old and weighs only 5.2 pounds. I cut her nails the day before, and she was as prepared physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually as any kitten could be.

Starlight at 5 months.

Starlight came through the spaying surgery with flying colors, but being a healthy, active kitten, she was frustrated with a full day of confinement that had begun when we left home at 7 a.m. that morning.

When I picked Starlight up at 6 p.m. that evening, I carefully checked all the zippers on the new carrier to make sure they were completely closed. I belted the carrier into the car seat, and started for the interstate.

Although I had greeted her lovingly while still at the vet, Starlight was protesting being confined. After turning onto the highway entry ramp, which is at least a mile long, I placed my right hand near the mesh at the front door of the carrier so she could scent it and hopefully calm down. To my great horror and surprise, I suddenly felt a cat head butting up against the palm of my hand.



I grabbed Starlight by the scruff of the neck and looked for a place to pull the car over.

It was night.  There were orange glowing streetlights lining the mile-long entry ramp. When the ramp split off in two directions, I was supposed to take the left lane.  Instead, I pulled into the space between the two lanes – not exactly a safe spot, in retrospect, but better than continuing on while holding a wiggling, escaped kitten in my right hand.

I turned on the light inside the car and discovered that Starlight had completely pulled the nylon mesh out of the stitching on one side of the front door of the carrier.  The zipper was still closed and in good condition.

What a strong kitten!! And she was so proud of her achievement! Unfortunately, I was less than happy.  Also unfortunately, I didn’t have any duct tape in the car, as after trying one or two ideas very quickly, it became very clear that there was no way to seal Starlight back into the carrier.

My only option was to hold the mesh closed with my right hand. This is not a safe way to drive.  Furthermore, it was dark. The roads were still lined with plowed up piles of snow from a blizzard just a few days before that had left 36+ inches everywhere. It was 6 p.m. and the temperature was falling. I really prefer to drive with two hands under these circumstances.

Still, I had no choice. It’s not safe to allow a curious kitten to run loose where she can crawl under the brake pedal or go flying into the windshield if a sudden stop is required.

Thanks to Mother/Father Source and the entire Upstairs Department we made it home safely.  Starlight had quieted down about half-way home, but I wasn’t taking any chances and kept holding the mesh closed.  Once in the garage with the overhead door shut, I took her out of the carrier, and made it into the house.

Before I left for the vets to pick Starlight up, Violet and Sakhara and I had discussed that Starlight would need to spend the night in the cat meditation room.  Now I unceremoniously, and without consulting anyone, carried Starlight into that room, shut the door tightly behind me, put Starlight on the floor, and proceeded to remove Violet from the cat meditation cave.

Violet was a bit dazed.  She was more out of her body than in it.  “Sorry,” I told her.  I wasn’t exactly calm, and because I know that cats after surgery often smell strange to other cats because of the drugs and antiseptics, I didn’t want to leave Violet and Star together until I could be present to supervise.  I still had to go back to the car, turn out all the lights, and bring everything inside from the trip.

As soon as I could, I took some (read LOTS OF)  5 Flower Formula (same as Bach’s Rescue Remedy) to calm myself down.  Then I had to settle everyone else down.   Starlight hadn’t eaten since 11:30 p.m. the night before and had refused food at the vets, so getting her to eat was a high priority.

So now my question was:

“What is the company that

sells this product going to do?”


It took several attempts to  reach their Customer Service department at Ethical Products, Inc., but I finally got through.  Persistence matters!!

I have been promised a brand new carrier!


Hand stitched repair to carrier door. The thread is VERY strong.

Meanwhile, I used my sewing skills and ingenuity to repair the carrier.  Violet and Sakhara would never think of trying get to out, so I feel it’s safe to use this old one for them, and since they are both receiving Advanced Allergy Therapeutics treatments, I still needed a functioning carrier.

The new carrier hasn’t arrived yet, and I keep wondering:  Is this a design flaw?  Or was this individual carrier defective?  I’ve asked the company and am waiting for a response.

I’ll definitely let you know what I find out, as safety is important when our animals need to travel.

Starlight has recovered nicely from her surgery.  Perhaps she’ll tell you all about it sometime.


P.S.  The company, Ethical Products Inc., sent me a brand new carrier.  The materials it’s made with are different from the original one, but the company was unwilling to say whether this carrier is safe for Starlight.  I appreciate their sending me a new carrier, but I’m not very confident about putting a physically strong, strong-minded kitten into it.  So for now, Violet and Sakhara get to use these, and Starlight gets the big plastic box with metal mesh.  I’m taking no chances!

Creating My Reality

February 5, 2013 by  
Filed under Age of Ascension, Nedda, New Posts


Discoveries on the Road to Freedom

In preparation for leaving 3-D and ascending to 5-D, we all learned that we are the creators of whatever we experience.  For most of us, this is difficult to accept at first because it challenges our old beliefs that things “just happen” to us and that we are not in control of our lives at all, or only minimally.


At some point, I began to accept that I could create whatever I wanted.  I studied the Law of Attraction, learned about using intention, and practiced creating things I wanted to experience with varying degrees of success.

Of course, I kept experiencing things I didn’t want to believe that I had created.  Those experiences were being manifested from old beliefs and assumptions about my life and who I thought I was in the past.  So there was confusion.  Am I truly a Divine Creator or not?


When I reached the next level of understanding and experience, I discovered that I really did create my experiences, but some of them I created “unconsciously” – without realizing that that’s what I was doing.  When I allowed old thought patterns and old emotional patterns to remain alive within me, all my fears and worries continued to energies situations and create things I did not choose to create.

In other moments, a thought might just flit past my awareness, and instantly manifest.  Like the day I thought, “Wow – this porcelain teapot that I love so much and is so very old doesn’t have a chip or crack on it.”  Where upon I opened the closet door and something fell out and broke off the entire handle.  Hmm.  Instant manifestation of something I didn’t want.  Remember, the Universe doesn’t judge your requests and doesn’t understand the concept of “negatives.”  So the Universe thought I was requesting damage, and manifested it instantly!

Another experience of nearly instant manifestation occurred the day I played scrabble with some friends. I noticed that if I placed a letter “s” at the end of one long word and the letter “d” at the end of another, and created the word “said” between them, I could make nearly 100 points in one turn.  Being careful to not focus on this word or position – everyone really IS telepathic, you know – I began playfully and joyfully intending/imagining that I could pull up all 4 letters for “said” at the end of my turn and then make this amazing move after 3 other people completed their turns.  AND IT HAPPENED.  Just like that!!  Again proving the power of creation within me.


Graduating to this level meant I BEGAN taking greater responsibility for having created my experiences.

But I continued to question:  “Can that really be true?  That I create EVERYTHING?  What about people who are treating me badly?  What about corporate bureaucracy and red tape?  What about the Illuminati?  What about Storm Sandy?  What about  . . . [fill in anything at all]?”

At this stage, I was willing to say, “I may not create everything going on in the world, but I create what I experience.  Whatever I focus attention on, I give energy to, and that keeps it going.”

If my cat is sick, did I create that?  Well, I didn’t “make” my cat sick – no guilt trips allowed!!  But somewhere inside me I created that this experience would appear in my life.  The cat is also choosing to mirror my beliefs and to experience whatever she is experiencing.

So many clients over the years have asked me to tell their animal to STOP taking on the their personal issues, but the animal always say, “NO!  This is what I’m here for.”

So at this level, I opened up to the possibility that I created everything in my life.  But I also hung back from full acceptance of this.  Some things were easier to accept as my responsibility, while others were not so easy.  Sometimes it took me awhile – in some cases months or weeks – in other instances days – to accept that I created experiences that were less than satisfying.

I still wanted to blame someone else, anything else, OUTSIDE of me, rather than accept total responsibility for everything.

However, science has demonstrated that the world “ouside” doesn’t really exist except as a projection from within us.  If that’s true, then putting blame “out there” is absurd.


This is the level I’m at now.  I have finally accepted that



is an expression of my beliefs and emotions,

and is my own creation.

ALL my health issues were created by ME.  I may not have known I was creating them, but they are expression of beliefs, attitudes, and emotions that I have been clinging to – many for my entire life, even beginning in the womb – and have finally manifested themselves in my physical body.

Drugs and other therapies that treat the physical symptoms won’t resolve these.

To heal my physical body, I MUST look at the underlying spiritual/mental/emotional patterns that are being expressed and thus created in my physical body.  Then, I can do whatever it takes to . . .

  • ACKNOWLEDGE them, 
  • ACCEPT them, 
Who’s in charge of this?
In order to reach the physical body, everything – EVERYTHING – must first go through the spiritual, mental, and emotional bodies.  This is why healing the spiritual, mental, and emotional levels WILL directly affect the functioning of the physical body.
ALL of the details about my life – where and how I live, what I do for a living and how I do it, all my relationships and all the patterns within them that are both satisfying and unsatisfying – HAVE BEEN CREATED BY ME.




That’s my new understanding, and when I remind myself with each experience that I have created it – no matter how large or how small – then I also know I have the power to change it.  It may not be easy for me to change it, and change may not come as quickly as I’d like, but unless I am willing to take responsibility, no change will happen at all.
More about this as it evolves.  I am learning much each and every day about who I AM and my power to create.

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