Kundalini Awakening

February 2, 2010 by  
Filed under Age of Ascension, New Posts


The Inner Fire


The Dream

I was asleep and dreaming.  I had asked for guidance when I lay down, something to help me understand the exhaustion I was feeling that resembled mononucleosis – where even chewing food took too much effort.  I wanted to understand and I wanted an answer.  What was wrong with me?

In the dream, I walked into a very strange store, with long, rectangular tables all around me, and on every table, from edge to edge with no empty spaces, were bottles of nail polish.  Standing behind one table was a very large woman wearing a muumuu, a loose-fitting outfit worn in Hawaii, and on it were enormous pure red flowers.  The background color was a lighter version of the same red.  The woman looked at me and immediately said, “You need Kundalini Red.”  Then she began searching through all the thousands of bottles on the table.

I woke up.  What did this mean?  I never wore nail polish.  Who was the woman?  I had never been to Hawaii.  I had heard the term “Kundalini” before, but I didn’t remember what it meant. 

Absurdly, I visited several stores that sold good quality nail polish, but none had a color called “Kundalini Red.”  The color was emblazoned in my mind.  It was a pure red, totally balanced between yellow and blue.  No one had this exact color.

Thus began my search to discover the meaning of my dream.

A few months later, I visit an ashram in South Fallsberg, New York, and met an Indian Meditation Master called Gurumayi.  She was dressed in red – Kundalini Red??? – and I received Shakipat initiation that very first day.

Kundalini – the energy coiled at the base of the spine right where the Root Chakra is located. 

Shakipat Initiation – the awakening of the Kundalini Energy by a Divine Being inhabiting a physical body – a Guru or advanced spiritual master.



Each person’s experience of Kundalini awakening is unique.  For me, it was an odd combination of sensations and feelings:

  • I felt sparks going off just above my head in my Crown Chakra.
  • I was struck “dumb” – I found it difficult to speak about anything, as if words no longer existed.  My mind had been stopped, at least temporarily (for about 3 days, actually), although I couldn’t have described this to anyone at the time.
  • Inside me, a ball of “impurities” or “dross” coalesced, about the size of a baseball.  I don’t know where it was in my body, but I could sense it’s presence.  Over the next few years, it kept shrinking until finally it disappeared completely.
  • All I wanted to do was sit in meditation.  Fortunately, I already had learned to meditate.  Doing anything else, like going to work, was very hard for the first few weeks.

As I said, each person’s experience of Kundalini awakening is totally unique.  Some people describe feeling blissful, but that wasn’t my experience.

Kundalini and the Kundalini awakening process is described in thousands of writings in the Hindu tradition.  There is very little information in the Western traditions about this.  However, all humans have the Kundalini energy in their 4-body system.

cobraThe sleeping Kundalini is curled up at the base of the spine in the area of the Root Chakra.  It is asleep because if it were awakened, we could not live the dream of 3rd dimensional reality.  We would KNOW we are Divine Beings and we would not be able to pretend otherwise successfully.

The awakening of Kundalini is a very important part of the process of Awakening your Spiritual Consciousness to the Knowledge that you are Divine.  Therefore, it is happening to everyone who is awakening now on Planet Earth. 



Kundalini is the Divine expression of  the “fire” element in the human body.  When it awakens, it uncurls, and in snakelike movements, it begins its journey up the central spiritual channel of the body (the sushumna) that surrounds the spine.

kundalini fireThis journey takes time because the sushumna is often clogged with stagnant, lower vibrational energy patterns, including past life issues, limiting beliefs, denser emotions, and habits of all kinds.  A cleared sushumna is as wide as your head and goes from the Crown Chakra all the way down to the bottom of your spine.

The first thing the Kundalini does is start to cleanse these stagnant energies in the fire of purification.    Since the Kundalini moves in a snake-like motion, it weaves up and back, higher and lower, in a process that can take years or even lifetimes.   As the Kundalini does it work, we often experience all kinds of symptoms (physcial, emotional, mental, and spiritual), many of which seem like “illnesses” or “dis-ease” and which cannot be diagnosed or treated by western medicine.

If you are experiencing symptoms that the allopathic medical community cannot diagnose, one possibility is that your Kundalini is awakening.  As I am not an expert in Kundalini awakening, I cannot tell you what to do or how to handle this, or even where to find someone who has answers to those kinds of questions.  My recommendation would be to ask your True Self for guidance in this matter.


The Heart Chakra

December 9, 2008 by  
Filed under Age of Ascension, Heart Centered Living

The heart chakra is located in the middle of the chest.  It is the center of Divine Love in our 4-body system (physical, emotional, mental, and spiritual levels, as they are called.)  The Heart Center is our place of healing.  WIthin it dwells our highest aspect that came into our physical form at the moment of birth.  This aspect has been called many things in different cultures, but I will call it the Divine Spark.

The transformative energy center.

The transformative energy center.

The Divine Spark resides inside a multidimensional MERKABA within the Heart Center.  When seen with the inner eye, the Divine Spark is a pure flame of white light.  It is our individual soul extension and is continuously connected to higher aspects of our Self that live outside the physical form. 

When drawn two-dimensionally, the Divine Spark is shown to exist within a 6-pointed star.  While some call this the Star of David, it is actually a two-dimensional representation of a MERKABA VEHICLE.  (There is also a MERKABA surrounding our auric fields, but that is another discussion.) 

The merkaba or star-tetrahedron.

The merkaba or star-tetrahedron.

The MERKABA is a sacred geometric form that begins to spin when we reach a certain point in our awakening process.  When it is spinning, is increases our personal power in many ways.

There are many other powerful tools of transformation in the heart.  These may be called the Heart emotions, but they vibrate at much higher frequencies than the emotions of the first 3 chakras.  The tools of the heart include:  Love without conditions, Hope, Compassion, Empathy, Forgiveness, Non-Judgment, Generosity, Joy, Peace, Gratitude, Enthusiasm, Detachment, and Communion with Oneness. 

In the Hindu tradition, the Heart Center is drawn with 12 petals of a lotus flower.  Each petal represents a smaller vortex spinning inside the larger vortex of the chakra. 

According to the ancient yogis, when the kundalini, (the divine energy which rests at the base of the spine until we receive spiritual awakening) rises to the heart chakra, we are able to transform our lower vibrational energies into higher frequencies.  The direct result of this transformation is to free ourselves from limitating emotions, limiting beliefs, and limiting thought patterns.  We become expansive, filled with creativity, love, light, and joy.

The Ascension process taking place on the Earth today is, in fact, awakening humanity by literally causing all of our cells, our DNA, and our 4-body system even to the atomic level, to vibrate faster.  This causes denser, lower frequency patterns to be brought to the surface of our awareness.  Things in our lives that made us uncomfortable can no longer be ignored because they are “in our faces.”  We may experience all kinds of symptoms at all levels, and Western medicine is not able to help us.  If we resist looking at and working through the patterns that are now intesified by the energies, we cause ourselves more pain and some even are choosing to leave the Earth plane rather than do the work to transform these energies.

The place to work consciously on whatever is arising for you is in the Heart Center.  There is not only the Divine Toolbox there, but also the Divine Self, who is ready to love, support, and encourage you, as well as to directly provide healing for this process.

Go into your Heart Center today and ask for assistance.  You will never be denied.


Tapping Into Your Inner Knowledge

December 1, 2008 by  
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When I was growing up, I was taught by both my parents and other “authorities” to distrust my inner knowings and experiences.  Did that happen to you, too?  And do you remember some of the things you knew that you were taught to distrust?

  • I knew that, if there is a God, s/he is loving and not hateful, cruel, or vengeful.
  • I knew that there is life on other planets.
  • I knew that I could communicate with animals, or at least feel what they were feeling emotionally.
  • I knew what I didn’t like.
  • I knew what I did like.
  • I knew that if I didn’t please my parents and did, instead, what I wanted to do or what I felt was right when it disagreed with their perspective, the consequences would be dire.

How can we retrieve our own sense of knowing what is best for us?

For me, it took a very long time and a lot of encouragement and courage to break away from the conditioning and programming that I had received.  The energies were much denser then and this kind of thing was very hard work.  I succeeeded because I was very unhappy and very determined.

Today, so many people are discovering that the “answers” they have been given about how to live their lives and what is important in their lives are no longer working.  Society and the economy and relationships are changing and as we feel tossed about on the ocean of consciousness, it is time to ask the questions,

What should I do? 
How can I feel free and expansive while still feeling safe?
How can I protect myself and my family?
How can I experience Love in all areas of my life?
What is the next step for me in my life path?
How can I find the higher purpose in all this?

Seeking answers, you can talk to lots of people – friends, family, psychics, various professionals and specialists – and you can read lots of books and blogs.  But really, what good are everyone else’s answers going to be for you?  Maybe those answers are the best answers for the person giving them, but how do you know if they are the best answers for you?

The bottom line is this: 


No one else knows what is for your highest good except YOU. 

The answers are not “out there.”  For one things, “out there” is really just a reflection of your inner world.  Perhaps you can get signals that appear to be “out there” as a means of guiding you, and sometimes those signals do come through other people, but those signals are really coming from “in there” inside you.

How can you learn to strengthen and enhance the signals you are receiving?  How can you learn to notice them more and interpret them correctly?


Each day, while commuting, or when you get into bed at night, or if you sit down to meditate, as some folks do, make the following requests:

  1. Ask your higher self or “I AM Presence” to be more fully integrated into your physical, emotional, mental, spiritual bodies (your 4-body system).
  2. Ask to be fully aligned with your Soul’s purpose for this day and for this lifetime.
  3. Ask to be given clear, neon-sign, you-can’t-miss-them signals to guide you through the day.
  4. Make a commitment to yourself to
    1. Notice the signals
    2. Write down all the signals you notice
    3. Follow through with the signals

If you do this every day for at least 2 weeks, I believe you will find significant changes in your ability to receive signals.  You will also find that there are more and more signals coming in.  You will, in fact, be getting the answers that you seek.


How do you learn any new skill, like shooting an arrow accurately?  You shoot an arrow and it misses the target.  You shoot another arrow, and it still misses the target, but it’s closer this time.  Maybe the next 3 arrows also miss and the 4th arrow hits the edge of the target.  By the 8th arrow, you are actually hitting the target 75% of the time.  By the 20th arrow you even had one bulls-eye.

All of life is a learning experience.  Your Higher Self, your I AM Presence, cannot guide you if you are standing still.  You have to take some steps in some direction.  If the steps you take are not in the direction you are being guided towards, you will get more signals to help you back “on track.”  If you are taking steps in the direction you are meant to go, you will get confirmations, which are signals that tell you that you are on track.

Sometimes confirmations and redirections come in the form of emotions.  You agree to do something, but you immediately feel horrible about it.  Or you agree to do something and you feel elated.  NOTICE these signals, and then follow through with them.  If you are distrusting them, you can ask, in either case, for additional confirmation.  But don’t keep asking over and over, as that will cause great confusion for you.

At some point you have to take a leap of faith. 


I left the world of computers without really knowing what I would do to support myself.  I kept getting the message that I had to leave or I would die, literally, as that world was making me very ill and it was not my true path any longer.  I had to learn to trust myself.  I had to learn that when I was aligned with my higher purpose everything would fall into place.  I had to learn to get out of my own way – get rid of limiting beliefs and ALLOW the energies of my life to flow and align.

Do you have the courage to trust your Self?  Now may be the time to find out, as the energies are supporting this as never before.