January 8, 2015 by  
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Neither Here Nor There.

A State of “Somewhere In Between.”

chrysalisChrysalis – a state of becoming.

So here we are in 2015.  Are you still in the catepillar stage?

Or are you inside the chrysalis, in the process of becoming a butterfly?

I’ve been making a lot of assumptions (a very human things to do) about what it’s like for the catepillar inside the chrysalis.  I’ve been imagining that it must be pretty relaxing – sleeping through the transformation process on the way to becoming a butterfly.

But what if I’m wrong?  Maybe to know the truth of this, I need to ask.

Nedda:  Hello.  Are you awaken in there?

Chrysalis:  Well… I’m neither awake nor asleep.  I’m drifting a lot, but I also can feel what’s happening.

Nedda:  What do you feel?

Chrysalis:  Pain – it really hurts to transform.  Sometimes I feel like I’ve caught some terrible illness.  Other times, I think I may be dying.  I also sleep quite a bit.  It’s rather unnerving to be in the caccoon.

Nedda:  Is it what you thought it would be?

Chrysalis:  Heck, no!  I thought this would be “a piece of cake,” as I’ve heard humans say.  You know – fun.  Easy.  Inspiring.  But it isn’t any of those things.  It’s challenging every day.  I worry about someone coming along and eating me, or freezing in bad weather.  I can’t move in here, ya know.  I’m stuck with the spot I chose to build this cocoon and it’s too late to move it.

Any my body hurts all the time, or nearly so.  Parts of me are disappearing.  Other parts are rearranging.  New parts are growing.  I really don’t understand all the details, but it’s quite uncomfortable at times.  Sometimes I tell myself that I just have to trust in the process.  Others have done it before me and I can do it, too.  But then I think, ‘Henry, you’re an idiot.  You’re making all this up.

Nedda:  Your name is Henry?

Chrysalis:  No, but I call myself that.  I’m not sure anymore what my name is/was.  Everything is changing, including my vibrational frequencies, so I no longer recognize who I was or who I’m becoming.  I’m in-between and yet there is only the “now” moment, so I guess I’m nowhere at all.

Nedda:  That sounds pretty challenging.  How do you feel about all this?

Chrysalis:  Pretty scared at times.  I know I won’t be a caterpillar when I come out and I have no idea how to fly.  What if my wings don’t work right?  What if I can’t figure out where to go to meet the other butterflies?  What if I don’t know what to eat?

Nedda:  Maybe you need to focus on the “now” moment and allow your fear to melt away.  Maybe you’d do better in trusting that your new body will know how to do all those things?

Chrysalis:  Do you really think so?

Nedda:  Well, it’s better than getting yourself all upset. I suspect your transformation will be easier if you just accept each step along the way and allow it to be prefect.

Chrysalis:  That sounds good, but it won’t be easy.

Nedda:  Who said anything about making it easy?  As far as I can tell, easy isn’t part of the deal.  If you want to become a butterfly, you have to be willing to do the work.

Chrysalis:  Easy for you to say.  You’re not in a chrysalis.

Nedda:  Well, actually, I think I am, metaphorically speaking.  Humanity is also transforming, and we look to you for inspiration.

chrysalis2Chrysalis:  Inspiration.  Inspiration?  Really?  Wow!  Who would have thought it.

Nedda:  Thanks for sharing.  I thought there was something wrong with my transformational process, but just listening to you has made me feel lots better.  I wish you well as a butterfly.

Chrysalis:  Thanks.  I wish you well, too.